You step out of your mind
You place your darkness on the soles of your feet
You walk on fear
But you get up today.
You place your pills on your tongue
Swallow the shame
Your voice gets held up in the silence
Caught up, tangled in your throat
So you bang your head on the walls
But you learn to make a sound today.
Your chest heaves
Heart drums beneath your skin
It tries to break the lock again
But you catch your breath
And you hold it gently
And you softly whisper “ you are where you need to be”
You forget to panic today.
Memory decides to interrupt the show
So you get up and dance to the lullaby of your torment
The music is no longer an overdue bomb ticking past zero
But a wake up call to growth
You plant a seed today.
You wear your favorite shirt
Your muscles unclench and paint themselves a masterpiece of a smile
You stare out the window
And it is no longer a blank canvas
And you are suddenly a child again
Bright morning spilling paint all over the floor
You hope again.
Pick up the life in you
Collect the ashes of your haunting
Burn them again, but this time step away
Unplug the record
Snap the car door open
Unlearn your pain
Learn your name
Because you’re here
And you survived.